Wednesday, February 06, 2008

looking for myself

I'm unhappy lately. I'm not the only.

I need to make some changes. Live more deliberately. Get my priorities straight.

Keep First Things First.

I've made some mistakes, bad choices.

Repeatedly.

These bad choices are affecting my marriage. My husband's trust of me.

He's not happy with me at all right now.

And I don't blame him.

I'll go ahead and reiterate - I'm unhappy lately.

I will be away from here for a while. I don't know how long. I won't make any promises.

No promises to you anyway. Only to My Mighty Hunter and my Lord.

'Cause they're first in my life and I need to prove it to them again.

I need your prayers.

I don't doubt his love for me (The Mighty Hunter OR the Lord's). I don't doubt their forgiveness either. But right now, I don't have their trust.

But I need that trust again.



...later...

5 comments:

Faith said...

awww...i'm sorry. I have been there, too. I'll miss you and I will be praying.

Jennifer, Le Binky Bitch said...

I'm sorry.

I'll send prayers your way.

Love Bears All Things said...

Sorry you're hurting. God can change things. First you need to trust Him.
Mama Bear

Super B's Mom said...

I've been there. I am the worst of the worst when it comes to disappointing my husband. Not fun - but you WILL get through this.

I will be praying for you. I really mean that.

Stapeliad said...

Wishing you all the best, and a speedy journey through this dark and difficult time.