So, the credit card bill from Christmas shopping and baby supply shopping and final clearance maternity clothes shopping and and and and
Well, it was here last month and some of it was here in December. And, we put everything on our credit card because "we pay it off each month and it earns us points toward the very valuable and important and precious hunting addiction supplies and some great shoes and sweaters and Gore-Tex coats".
except I didn't.
Pay it off, that is.
I did make some substantial payments toward it, but OMG, the way this family consumes unnecessary things like milk and toilet paper and soap and diapers and formula too (because Lucky is a bottomless pit. bottomLESS, I say) and the car insurance and DirecTV and a few other things automatically get paid by the credit card. So, the balance is not going down.
It's not going UP either.
very much at least.
Well, The Mighty Hunter was given the news yesterday and the Great Money War began again after a tenuous cease-fire.
So, here's the damage.
I'm no longer handling money of any amount beyond pocket change.
pocket change = coins
I no longer have to pay the bills. I've hated and despised and loathed and hated that chore for years. I don't know why I've been the one to do it. But no more.
I have to consult with The Mighty Hunter before I make any purchases.
any = a coke
I have to submit receipts for every expense.
every = a coke
I have disappointed and hurt the Mighty Hunter and his confidence in me and his trust in me.
I can't begin to put into words the black pit of self-loathing and self-pity I'm in today.
He's not talking to me very much. He's forcing himself to answer my questions. He's not mad or yelling. He's through with that. It didn't change anything and he's through wasting his energy. He's civil. He's hurting and disappointed.
I'm responsible for that.
It breaks my heart to know I've done that to him.
he still loves me.
his email back to me. Yes, I emailed him, because I'm chicken and it's the only way I can build the confidence to say that I need to hear that he loves me still...
"I will always love you. That’s something that will not change no mater what. It’s not something that I can turn on or off by your actions"
Party on, Gal.
Yes, I know that there are much worse things that I could be going through. There are much worse things that are going on in this world. This is just what I'm going through right now.
and it's really hard
really really hard
Not to be totally bipolar or anything, but...
Lucky's infant acne is not acne, its eczema. And that bottomless pit thing? Yeah, his weight gain is great.
Birth - 9 lbs
2 days old - 8 lb 2 oz
5 days old - can't remember
15 days old - 9.5 lbs
yesterday ( 1 month, 1 day old) - 11 lbs 14 oz
Tuesday, February 27, 2007
Friday, February 23, 2007
And the funky hat.
And the boob job.
**Sorry for all the extra spaces. Dang Blogger wasteful spaces.
Thursday, February 22, 2007
Random thoughts of a Mommy who is not adjusting so very well to staying at home so DANG much and is watching waaaaaaaay too much TV and feels OBLIGATED to share it with the vast nothing that reads my blog - or to the LURKERS who NEVER comment. I know you're there. I see you coming and going. If we could only get on speaking terms!
How many links can I put in this post?
1. I don't like Obama. For a lot of reasons, but my favorite reason is his name is too much like OSAMA and I really don't like OSAMA.
I'm working on a conspiracy theory here. Or I'm paranoidy nutso. But, THAT'S a whole-nother post.
Now.... Stay with me... If you take the "B" out of Barack, it sounds like "Iraq". And if you change the "b" in Obama to "s", then you have Osama.
yeah. Big conspiracy here. I just have to figure out the rest of it. And how Area 51 is involved. Cuz it's ALWAYS linked to the aliens.
2. I don't like Hillary either. It has nothing to do with her name. I just happen to agree with Obama's mouthpiece, David Geffen. Preach it, brother!
3. I nibbled on Lucky's belly and thighs today. Yummmm. Fat babies. Mmm Mmm Good!
4. I desperately need a life. I know it. It became so very VERY apparent today as I posted on the forums at http://bigbadbabynames.com/forum/index.php
5. And how in the name of all that is Holy and Beautiful do I get rid of infant acne?
Except I just learned that it's not acne. It's eczema. Evil evil eczema, whose name I want to type with an "x" for some reason, but must leave my beautiful son's face at this moment.
And you use .05% hydrocortisone cream on it. And it takes a LONG time. And when you rub it on his little cheeks and chin, he tries to latch on to your finger tip and nurse.
And those UGLY little bumps looked like Dennis the Menace freckles before they started to clear up.
6. Back to politics for just a sec.
Are we as Americans so dang STUPID that we need the very rich, very self-serving, very self-righteous, very nutty celebrities to tell us how we should think and feel about topics - and my recent favorite - who (whom?) should get our votes?
Are we? I'm not! I find it ridiculous and sad that actors, models, directors and producers have the ability to hand-select their favorite pawn politician and put them into a position where they can have a powerful influence on our country and its government.
Do we, as individuals and voters, lack the confidence and decision-making skills to choose a political candidate on our friggin' own without asking David Geffen or Angelina Jolie or that tall guy from the Shawshank Redemption?
7. Today is Friday, March 9, 2007. I am 6 weeks 1 day postpartum. Lucky weighs 12 lbs PLUS. I lack 5 lbs to get back to my pre-pregnancy weight. I had my postpartum check today. I'm "anatomically" healed and released from physician care. woohoo!!!
8. My hormones, which have been pretty stable since Lucky's birth, went on a roller coaster ride yesterday. I cried about nothing. When The Mighty Hunter asked what was wrong, I cried more and told him to leave me alone. I seemed to be feeling better, so he asked if I was ok, which only made me start crying again. idiot. He ought to know that I want to be left alone until I'm ready for a hug. And when hug-time arrives, he'd better be standing with his arms outstretched, hands patting the air, missing only my body in the embrace! sheesh!
9. Our stinky farm dog has fleas and has gnawed the hair off his butt. It's sad.
10. The Mighty Hunter broke our digital camera earlier this week. It still works when you apply the high tech adhesive to hold the battery cover closed.
11. How can they KILL Capt America? Not that I've ever read the cartoon. But it's like killing Capt Earth!
12. The guy who dismembered his wife. Stephen Grant. Yeah. He doesn't look like someone who has lost touch with reality at all.
13. Barbie Bandits. She was all, "We're gonna rob a bank cuz my friend that like totally likes me, he works there and then we'll buy some really HOT clothes that show off my HOT teen bod and then I'm gonna like spend my money on like a really expensive but badly-done bleach job and look just like Barbie doll! And THEN, I'm gonna REALLY SPLURGE! I'm gonna eat dinner at the Cheesecake Factory. OMG! Cuz its like totally the most rockin yumm-o kewl place to like eat really expensive stuff like cheesecake and then, we're gonna totally fun from the law like those old women Thelma and Lucy in that old movie, cuz we like totally broke some big like royal laws or something. We totally ROCK! Now, like, lets get facials and some kewl make-overs - oh crap! the cops!"
14. I should do something else now. something productive. something that doesn't bore you.
15. Tee Ball starts up soon. Can't wait. Stinkerbell is 6 ways of excited about it.
16. Have a good weekend.
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
Do they have a place at Gitmo for newborns?
Cuz my son's a traitor.
He has betrayed me.
Me. His mother. You'd think I'd get a little respect.
After all, I was the pregnant one. I was the one that puked my guts up and had the splitting migraines for 2 months. I was the one that got all those great pain meds! I was the one that waddled around with sciatica. I was the one that grew the brahma bull hump. I was the one that suffered from the constipation and diarrhea. I was the one that was told that you might 10 lbs! I was the one that needed the epidural to push you out of my patooty. I was the one that needed the stitches. I was the one that lost a lot of blood. I was the one that fainted and puked. Twice. All over the Labor/Delivery Suite. And the bathroom. And your Aunt Beboo. I was the one that had the OMG-take-your-breath-away-Wish-I'd-practiced-that-stupid-breathing afterpains. I was the one that had "retained matter" and developed an infection and had to go BACK. TO. THE. HOSPITAL. AGAIN!! for a D&C. I was the one that was nuts from the cabin fever. I'm the one with the sore nipples and leaking milk and wet clothes. In public. Unaware of it.
Ignorance prevents embarassment. It's just better to not know. At least until you get home.
And there you go, you traitor. You choose your DADDY to coo at first. He's the one that gets your first awake smile. He's the one that you listen to on the speakerphone and coo to AGAIN.
No love for Mommy.
I'm the one that gets to hold you the most. I'm the one that gets to snuggle close to you during the night. I'm the one that can silence your PITIFUL ANGRY cries just by holding you.
I'm the Mommy.
And you know it.
Still, you're a traitor and I will remember it forever and will get my revenge by showing all your girlfriends the pictures of your naked butt and embarass you.
That hairy crack is gross isn't it?
Thursday, February 15, 2007
Bonus blog post...
It's not Howard or Larry or ZsaZsa's fake-prince, trophy hubby..
I'm the father of Anna Nicole's baby!!
Give the baby to some adoptive parents who will love her and help her recover from her methadone-baby detox.
Kick Howeird out of the country - Taiwan is good country for pimps.
Make Larry wash off his makeup.
Tell the "prince" to go change ZsaZsa's Depends.
Let's find someone else to Marilyn Monroe-ize to death.
Literally, to death.
Seriously, people. Let's get a life of our own. She was at best a beautiful, siliconed-up funny drunk. Now, she's gone.
It never was that interesting when she was alive. It's down-right sad and boring now that she's dead.
Old-Married Kind of Romance
Box of chocolates that you can't identify and regret biting into but smile and force yourself to chew and swallow
Snuggling in front of the fire-place in a lacy, red nighty (The Mighty Hunter in the nighty! not me! I crack me up!)
September 2006 was our 14th anniversary (yay, us!). We're country folks. SOME might call us red-necks.
Well, maybe. But we're hi-tech red-necks.
The Mighty Hunter and I grew up right here in NE Alabama and love it. We graduated from Auburn University, also located in a beautifully rural part of Alabama.
After college, we moved home; The Mighty Hunter worked in the Hicksville, NY (Long Island) area; then he worked in the Dallas-Fort Worth area; and ended up in Los Angeles. I moved out there with him. We lived there for 15 more months. We became jaded Los Angelinos - with Southern Accents. We've been back in Alabama since October 1995.
Thank you, Jesus.
We've done the romantic stuff that the commercials tell us we should want.
There are some people who would think that a wife should expect - nay, demand! - the retail version of romance and Valentine's Day.
For The Mighty Hunter, simply being at home, watching his favorite tv shows or movies. Eating a home-cooked meal. Playing with his babies. Going to bed early.
These things are romantic.
This year, I treated The Mighty Hunter to his version of romance.
I didn't get flowers. Didn't want any. We have some very close friends who own a florist shop. We've volunteered in the past delivering for them. They've donated not-so-perfect roses to The Mighty Hunter's retail-romantic efforts. Even their beautifully perfect flowers wilt. I usually kill the plants that are given to us. I wouldn't buy flowers from anyone but my friends. But I repeatedly told The Mighty Hunter - no flowers.
I didn't want candy. I have a HUGE bowlful of Halloween, Christmas and birthday candy - plus some things I indulged in before Lucky was born. I will buy my own chocolates.
I can't drink right now - Lucky would definitely be considered an under-aged drinker. And I would probably guilt-trip myself into confessing to contributing to the delinquency of a minor if I had more than a sip of his home-made Scuppernong wine. Even if I weren't breast-feeding, I'd probably have only a couple of sips. I'm a light-weight.
I can't seem to get a shower on a predictable schedule - so going to a crowded restaurant was not a viable or DESIRABLE option.
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
Faster than projectile spit-up
More powerful than a pacifier
It's a woman
It's a parent
It's SUPER MOMMY!!!
Yes, I am boldly staking my claim to the moniker.
Everyone at our local Wal-Mart was impressed - dare I say AMAZED - at my maternal skill and powers. How does a beautiful young mother -
"what did you say? she's over 30? No way. She looks MUCH younger than that! Why, you can't see the first gray hair on her head? No! Her hair isn't naturally that beautifully colored with caramel brown, tawny red and dark golden blonde? Say it isn't so!"
back to their whispering...
How does a beautiful YOUNG mother get her beautiful children to sleep in the shopping cart while rushing around purchasing the groceries for her family and home? And not have a wrinkle in her clothes? And her make-up looks like it was perfectly applied by Carmindy? And she makes those super-comfy shoes look quite stylish!
Look at those babies!
With groceries stacked around their legs and arms and a pack of baby wipes for a pillow under the girl's head!
Since there is such a cult of tip-sharing among internet Mommies, I thought this might be a great place to share one of my secrets for speed-shopping at my local super Wal-Mart...
It's a good 'un...
Wait for it...
Well, I didn't use it yesterday anyway!
Tuesday, February 06, 2007
"The First 12 Days"
Pitocin is a b!+ch
Epidurals are from Heaven itself
Doctor breaks my water
Who knew that it could splash???
And get his arm wet?
Saying goodbye to many things
The groin pain (good riddance!)
The achy hips
The sore ribs
The constant peeing
The weight (if only a slow good-bye)
Saying hello to many things
The most handsome little boy
His coos and squeaks
His cries and grins
His fingers and toes
His beautiful eyes and nose
His strong little thirst
His baby eagle squawks
His double sneezes (just like his daddy)
My milk (wow and ouch)
Yes, too many not-so-pleasant surprises
More passing out
It's still a b!+ch
Just as bad a b!+ch
Afterpains are increasingly worse with each pregnancy
Thanks for the NON-warning ladies!
Would have appreciated knowing that BEFORE they brought me to tears
And took my breath
And made me realize my inadequate breathing-through-contractions skills
Who the crap dreamed up that stupid idea anyway?
Breath through the pain
Prescription for iron
Constipation is evil
So is diarrhea
Prevent both but
It's a tightrope
Over thin ice
With hot sun
Shining in my eyes
Holy Lord. Stop. The. Blinding. Pain.
Night sweats aren't always night sweats
Sometimes it's a fever breaking
Fevers usually mean infection
Infections within days of giving birth aren't usually a good idea
No, it wasn't a sinus infection
Or an ingrown toenail
It took a D&C
And 6 bags of IV antibiotics
And general anesthesia
And a night back on the maternity floor at the hospital
And another IV
IN MY WRIST
Never another wrist IV for me
And another blood draw for CBC (props to ER and Scrubs and House for that abbreviation!)
It hurt more than all the other blood draws combined
A worried Mighty Hunter and parents and in-laws and other family and friends
Horrible hospital lunch
Home by 2pm
Cabin fever returning
Lucky is worth it all