Ode to Pregnancy
Movement Two - The beginning of the END
"Is it too late to change my mind and find a surrogate?"
1 cm down
9 cm to go
Sorting through tiny, precious baby clothes
Braxton-Hicks with intense spasms/cramps in the bend of my leg
What did I do with the thing-a-ma-bob from when Stinkerbell was a baby?
Didn't someone already give me that gift?
"Some assembly required"
It says to use a screwdriver but I'd rather use the hammer
Sick fascination with baby shows on tv
Name negotiations enter the final phase
Can I PLEASE get some pants that will stay UP!!!
Can we do one more ultrasound and make sure that this is not a watermelon in my belly?
We have a middle name, let's just pick the first name now!
Keep clothes clean
Dash to hospital plan
Winter weather chances? oh crap!
Hospital is 4 miles away
But down a BIG hill
And across 2 bridges
Please NO WINTER WEATHER!!!
I only want to eat chocolate
The Mighty Hunter rubbing my belly
Peanut wiggling around as The Mighty Hunter rubs his cocoon.
Thinking how hard it must be for The Mighty Hunter to feel Peanut wiggle
The Mighty Hunter is a big wimpy baby
He's scared of me
Enjoying the last few days of having this power to instill fear with just a twitch of my eyebrow
Having the freedom to say WHATEVER I WANT and laugh it off
Thinking I should have packed our bags yesterday
This is my last baby
A little sadness
Real yearning to see my Peanut's little face and fingers and toes and tooshy
Bittersweet aching for Stinkerbell's big adjustments to life with a sibling
Making memories of this time with her
Wishing I had done many things before now
Not noticing Braxton-Hicks unless they include the blinding, breath-catching cramps
Needing to trim my toenails
GIVING UP control over my life
Seeing my full-body profile in a mirror
Swearing to never look in that mirror again
Even maternity clothes aren't fitting anymore
Wishing everyone would stop nagging me and let me do what I CAN do!
Appreciative of the concern everyone has for me
Laughing with Stinkerbell at how I look when I dance with her to Hannah Montana
Panting for breath from dancing
Panting for breath from walking to bathroom
Panting for breath at anytime
Can I PLEASE just be regular???
Wishing I would feel those Braxton-Hicks again
Stocking up freezer for those days that I will be hobbling around the house alone with a baby
Confident that I'll be sick of pizza before I run out of my stash
Dreaming of a chari/recliner/sofa design that allows me to slump and still have lumbar support and prop up my feet
Fear of my water breaing in a very public, very inappropriate, very embarrassing place
Because things like that NEVER happen to me at home in private
Can I PLEASE be allowed to actually QUIT work?
Thank you ISP for getting my hi-speed connection working at home again.
Getting ready for The Mighty Hunter's Dad Shower this Saturday
The Mighty Hunter is not happy about the Dad Shower
The Mighty Hunter: "why do I have to be tortured too?"
"Because it's only FAIR!!!"
Thankful that I've made it this far
Migraines are gone
Only typical pregnancy discomfort and complaints left now
Soon only pregnancy memories
Will look back someday and wish I could remember this time again a little more clearly than possible
Treasuring every last minute as much as possible
Wishing I could freeze time and live here and now forever
Wishing I could hurry up and get to the birth and move ahead
Wishing for the most exceptionally ordinary things
Sunday, January 14, 2007
Ode to Pregnancy