Friday, August 15, 2008

Grieving (edited to remove the autocorrections provided by my iPhone)

I feel like someone has died. A huge part of our lives from the past
three years is ending, and I'm a bundle of raw nerves.

I feel like a Dutch dike, and there's a very ADD boy plugging my leaks
but getting distracted by the birds flying by and the wind on his
cheeks and the scent of tulips.

And when I cry I can't speak. This may be a blessing for The Mighty
Hunter, but it makes for an Ugly Cry several times a day.

So I sit in line to pick up Stinkerbell at school. I see the other
mom's and dads and wonder if their day sucked as much as mine. I
wonder if the teachers can see my red puffy eyes through my old,
scratched Bolles. And I try to form words that accurately describe my
Now.

Fear
Pain
Grief
Relief
Loss
Sadness
Regret
Wishes
Dreams
Death
Change
Life
Hope
Faith
Love
Future

But most of all, I think of how very much I need the comfort of my
Savior. And the tender hugs of my babies.

There are brighter days coming.

3 comments:

auburnlover said...

Yes,there are. I promise.

elizabeth said...

Amen, sister, Amen.

Kaye said...

You know, a friend of mine once pointed something out to me: Up on the mountaintop, it is nice and cool and breezy, but there is no sign of life. That's because all growth takes place in the valley.

Chin up, Keri. He's there for you and now is obviously a time to grow.