Thursday, August 14, 2008

He broke down

He came home to get a notebook he had forgotten. I warmed him a plate of spaghetti left over from last night. He took Lucky for a ride in the Rhino. He cried when he told me that the business will be closing.

He apologized for "not being able to provide" for us.

He sees the very likely possibility that he will have to take work that requires him to travel all the time.

He cried to not be taken away from his family.

I hugged and kissed him. I told him I love him. I told him I'm proud of him. I told him I'm not disappointed in him.

We prayed together. He begged God to not take him away from us.

He's meeting with a bankruptcy attorney tomorrow.

I'm going to leave resumes around town. We have to get health insurance.

I have to find the words to tell Stinkerbell.

I have to stop crying too.

I'm scared to death. What do I do? What will the next days, weeks and months be like? How will I get through them?


elizabeth said...

I posted a comment here, but I don't see it. Did you get it?

Also, how do I copy the Arte Y Pico award pictures? Thanks so much. Can't believe I can ever inspire anyone like you...your writing/feelings truly inspire.


Michelle said...

Oh, sweetie. What a horrible day you must be having. I am sitting here at my computer and I am lifting not only you but your husband as well up in prayer. I can't imagine what you are going through right now. Not just losing a job, but something you have both poured a lot of engergy into. Know that I am going to continue to pray with you. I am hear as a "shoulder" to cry on or an "ear" to listen.
"Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is is seen, but what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is enternal." 2 Corinthians 4:16-18

Hang in there...

Anonymous said...

Oh girl, I am so sorry! But you know what? Things will be fine. They won't be pretty. They won't be fun. But they will be fine. You still have the most important things in your life. You just keep loving each other and wait for the next adventure that God has in store for you.

Many many {{hugs}} to you! I'm praying for you!

elizabeth said...

Hi. Thanks for your comment.

I guess when I wrote the 1st comment something happened..oh well. Here it goes again...

This was the sweetest post to me. Of course I am SO very sorry that you and your family are going through this difficult time, but you can just tell how strong you all are and what a wonderful relationship you and your husband have.

You, surely, will get through this time with His help. As for the silver lining, well, try to focus on all the things you do have...a husband that is devoted to you and your family, two beautiful children, your health, etc.. Those things will help you overcome the other. I have often told my husband that if we lost everything I would be just fine as long as I had him, the kids, and we were healthy. Put me in a trailer with food and clothes to meet our needs and that's all I would need. They are far more valuable than any nice cars, homes, $$ to me. I know you feel the same.

I really hope the attorney brings forth relief that you need right now.

Im praying for you.

( Oh and my email is


auburnlover said...

Hi Keri,
This happened to us. We moved several times with a company(which shall remain nameless)living in FL,OH and ending up here in TN. (We are both originally from AL.)After being here about one year said company abruptly took out the level of management where my husband worked and he had no job. We had a 5th grader,a 6th grader and a 3 y.o.,few contacts or friends.
It was hard. I was frequently panicky. We couldn't think clearly enough to make decisions--Do we stay here? Move,again? How do we tell the kids that we moved them here basically for nothing?
I went back to work on weekends so my husband could travel to look for jobs during the week. I loved my job,btw.It took several months before he found something, then 'moved up' a year later to a better job. We made it,although we know this same thing could happen again in this economy, to us or anyone else.
I can only tell you that God will provide.He assures us of that.
My daughter told her youth group during this time that although the job loss was a terrible blow,she thought her family grew closer during that time.
I will pray for you and your family. We Auburn people--we ARE family!!!

Super B's Mom said...

First of all, I am so sorry. You have been in my thoughts constantly. I certainly hoped this would turn out differently for your family. You are a wonderful wife and mother - very evident from your concern for others.

We are going to keep praying. And stay faithful that God will open a door at just the right time. Please don't feel like you are alone in this struggle b/c there are people, like me, who will be with you daily in thought and prayer.

Hang in there. God is always in control.

Kaye said...

I'm sorry that it came to this. However, as hard as it seems, you already have the answers...they all lie with your Heavenly Father. You can't quite see the horizon like He can, but you can rest assured that this was not a surprise to Him and He allowed to so that you could move on to something better. And if He thinks it is better, who are we to aruge? =)

I know it is rough and the transition might not be easy, but as long as you are relying on Him, you will move forward as He wants you to.

Your husband is certainly not a failure...these are hard economic times and many, many people are suffering as a result.

Hang in there and be strong, but be strong in Him. Be weak enough yourself to let Him take over.

I'll be praying for you.