Wednesday, April 11, 2007

I don't want to be me anymore.

I don't know WHO ELSE I would like to be. But it's not me.

I know that everyone has their own hornet's nest of issues. I'm just tired of mine.

I know I'm not alone in this too. At least I think I am.

I don't like the things I do. I don't like making the same kind of mistakes repeatedly. I don't like me at all.

I could go back to bed for the REST of the day. And I totally would if I didn't have commitments and responsibilities. I wish I didn't have those particular responsibilities.

I'd like to eat a whole pack of chocolate chip cookies. Right Now. All of them. With a gallon of milk.

Screw being an adult.

Screw healthy eating.

I think I'd like to be Stinkerbell. Or Lucky.

I wish I could just like myself. I wish I could be a better Me.

Me sucks.

I guess it wouldn't be inappropriate to ask for a few up-lifting prayer and thoughts. Thank you.


Anonymous said...

I just said a prayer for you!

And, I'd be willing to make you some homemade chocolate chip cookies (minus the obligatory one I eat from each batch I pull out of the oven) Because when you're in a state of despair, you should turn to friends, not Nabisco!

Anonymous said...

Hang in there! Remember, that God loves you - no matter what!
Believing God with you!

Jennifer said...

sorry you're having a rough go of things right now. hang in there!

Go read some funny blogs to cheer yourself up!

SouthernTransplant said...

I wish I were there to give you a big hug right now...hug you and eat chocolate chip cookies together...and then as we always do, kick each other in the pants and get out of this funk. I'm so sorry you are feeling so down. Remember God loves you and so do I! Call me if you want to chat.

Aaron & Alaine said...

When I got past the laughter of the photos you post - we have a lot in common. Those cute button faces and the handmade art should be enough to give you a gratitude shower every day - but this is real life. Some days are hard, some times we feel like being someone else, and other times, we feel cookies calling.

This is from a woman who had to recently address "give away that South Beach Book - you aren't doing that anymore....". Life can be a rollercoaster, but God's grace allows us to stay on the ride and strive for whatever each day has to offer. And, when all is said and done, I'm so glad the carnival has put me in touch w/such a great group of women. Go Hip Chics!

(I'm still laughing about the dog house on the back porch, velvetta, I will be back!)